Being is a relationship is so tired and happy at times, thats why everyone say loving someone is tiring and hurtful at times. You always make me cry at times but sometime u really make me feel so fortunate to get to be with you. Dear i love you so much that i cant take it when we really leave each other in future i really hope to go all the way with you, i love you so much that i cannot really fall in love with another person, i hope we can quarrel less and go back to those sweet times we had in the past i know the job u working now is giving you alot stress and frustrated so i will try to be more understanding so as not to add to ur worries. Dear you know i have been pondering this question very long time ever since you say you will die soon its really very scary to even think about it. i sincerely hope you will be fine and be with me all the way just like how i want to be with you all the way no matter you are poor, or sick i just wanna be with you dear i love you.. Everything i wanted to tell you all this while is all in this blog but i will not let you know that there is this blog or anyone else know about this, unless you ownselves  find out about it till then let this blog be a secret ba..     I LOVE YOU<3

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Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Im really confused in the things im doing am i doing all wrong thats why he is always mad  at me?? what should i really do to prove myself .. his wrk is already so stress. and yet i am still always adding to his stredd level what type of gf am i such a failure as his gf cannot even help him only know how to add burden to him maybe he is right i should not have being together at the first place if we never together he maybe do things will be more smooth i guess im the unlucky star beside him thats why always with me nothing goes smoothly .. Im sorry dear, i know i promise you alot but none is really done i know you give me alot of patience and chances but i never really appreciated it i have lots to say to you but henever i wanted to say anything to you the words just remain stuck in my mouth and in the end all i talk is glibberish everything that i dont meant to say end up saying alot of hurtful things really sorry .. i really dunno what to say..

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Im wondering is it once you lie no one will ever believes in you ever again even your love ones, i know is my fault to lie in the first place and make you dont have any trust in me , but im trying to change why cant you give me some time.. just because i meet a friend and never say his name you angry, but why dont you go think you always meet your friends you also never say the name when i ask you, you always reply ask me not to ask too much about your things i just want to shoow concern to you but in the end get shoot back, i alone at hm also nothing to do being called back to outlet already very bored le even meeting a friend you also will angry what should i do to ever make you happy?? i really dont know who can i talk to if im sad or wad all my friends beside me i also dunno can i trust them anotso the only ay for me to relieve my stress and sadness is blogging i really hope you can love me as before.

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